Thought I'd share a few belly shots with everyone…


(a bit hard to see since my stupid blog editor won't allow me to link to the larger sized picture, hopefully I can get that fixed and maybe update the pics)
I'm 32 weeks and 5 days as of today. It's hard to believe that in less than 8 weeks (give or take) our little guy will be here! No more strange alien moving around in my belly. It's a little sad in a way. I've gotten quite used to being pregnant, and while I can't wait to have this baby be here, it will be weird having him on the outside instead of inside! While there are things about pregnancy that stress me out and there are physical discomforts, I love feeling the baby move around, looking at his little ultrasound pictures, wondering if he'll look like me or B, and so many other things.
WARNING: Excessive pregnancy discussion and ranting to follow….
One thing I won't miss about pregnancy, however, is all the pressure…and I'm not talking about the pressure you feel from having a tiny beings feet up under your ribs and his head on your bladder! It just seems like there are so many things to feel pressured about with pregnancy, labor and even what you do once the baby is here, that truly drive me insane. All through my pregnancy it seems I've constantly been bombarded by other peoples' opinions on everything from my diet to whether I should have pain medication during labor to how I should FEED the baby once he's here! If it doesn't come from family or friends, it comes from pregnancy books, the internet, childbirth classes, and sometimes doctors. It often seems like these sources believe there is only one way to have a healthy pregnancy, childbirth etc…and I sure as hell am not doing it right. Sometimes I feel all these outside sources make me feel like I'm far too stupid to give birth and raise a child. Like I have no common sense whatsoever.
For the last 7 (going on 8 ) months I have done everything I could to ensure that this baby was healthy; watched my diet, followed all of my doctors orders, undergone all necessary tests, and tried to be as informed as possible about pregnancy and childbirth–I wonder at times if I'm a bit too informed. I'm sure that when it comes time to deliver this baby, while I have certain things I really want to avoid…like an induction or c-section, if those things can't be avoided, I will do whatever is necessary to ensure that I have a safe delivery and a healthy baby. Once the baby is here, I hope that people will trust that B and I will make the best choices for us and the baby to ensure he continues to be healthy and grow and thrive. While I'm sure we'll be asking for help from our family and friends, I also hope that people will respect the decisions we make. That's been a pretty big fear of mine all along, not having my choices respected. I'm sure there is always someone who feels they know better than you, and that thinks you're raising your kids all wrong. I just hope I can be strong enough to not let those people get under my skin.
Ok, I didn't intend for this to become a rant…but it seems to have. It's nice to get it off my chest, however, and hopefully if there are any other moms or moms-to-be reading this then they can let me know how they deal/dealt with all the pregnancy pressure.